I am a shallow, self-righteous, small pathetic person

Getting an honest look at myself today….along with a good laugh…..and a few learning moments too. Here’s why…

Every 4-6 months, I get a new car. It is part of my company’s benefits program and a way for employees to get exposure and provide feedback on various products. It is such a privilege and there is an unwritten code that one never-ever-ever complains about one’s assigned vehicle.

But that’s because usually one receives a totally pimped-out, fully-loaded, sparkling, beautiful vehicle to evaluate.

Until today, when I was assigned pretty much the most undesirable vehicle in the fleet. It wouldn’t be so bad in say, Europe, where small cars are the norm…but ‘in my culture…’

Enough said. Suffice to say, the nicest thing any of my colleagues can think of to say to me about it is ‘well…it will be easy to park…’

And I have pretty much reacted like any spoiled, shallow, snotty-panted person would…’I can’t be seen in this…how they can expect me to drive this…I deserve better than this……’

I’m slightly exaggerating my reaction, but not by much. The Lord and I have already had a few good laughs over it…and the convicting kind of guilt too…just yesterday I was belly-aching about the poor…yet today I am belly-aching about having to drive a dorky car.

Yet, Jesus still loves me. And doesn’t waste an opportunity to train me, teach me and show me my constant need for his grace because, seriously my friends, even more than a free car, it is such an undeserved gift.