The Long Defeat

I have joined the long defeat 
that falling set in motion 
all my strength and energy 
are raindrops in the ocean 

so conditioned for the win 
to share in victor's stories 
but in the place of ambition's din 
I've heard of other glories 

I pray for an idea 
and a way I cannot see 
It's too heavy to carry 
and impossible to leave 

I can't just fight when I think I'll win 
that's the end of all belief 
and nothing has provoked it more 
than a possible defeat 

I pray for an idea 
and a way I cannot see 
It's too heavy to carry 
and impossible to leave 

We walk a while we sit and rest 
we lay it on the altar 
I won't pretend to know what's next 
but what I have I've offered 

I pray for a vision 
and a way I cannot see 
It's too heavy to carry 
and impossible to leave 

I pray for inspiration 
and a way I cannot see 
It's too heavy to carry 
and impossible to leave 

-Sara Groves